The moon is round, bright and so full that it almost seems like God has turned on a flashlight and pointed it straight at us! I just came in from sitting on the screened veranda with Duane only twenty minutes away from midnight and figured this might be as good a time as any to jot down some thoughts before a whole new day begins all too early with the screeching yells from Sivana at 6:00 a.m.
I miss writing... these days, the hubbub is so ongoing that any free moment is usually met with the option to either exercise, nap, shower, catch up on emails and/or administrative tasks, or blog. That is usually the order in which the choice is won so it is very rare that blogging wins. But tonight, I have already exercised, I've napped, I've showered and in an effort to avoid going through my 409 emails waiting for me in my inbox, I've decided to finally blog!
Sooooo many thoughts, so many funny moments... so many humbling ones, too. I wish I could capture them in thought and send them out through the written word. Today, the thought that visited the most was around the topic of humility and selflessness.
Antoinette and I often have really deep conversations about what it means to love God, what our challenges are, where we could be missing the boat and how we should aim to learn more. There is a mentality out there that as Christians, we are to be humble, in fact, we are told to be... but what that humility is to look like varies considerably!
I have seen those who believe that self-punishment is a way of ensuring one never thinks highly of themselves. I have seen those who believe that they must think themselves nothing... worthless... unworthy... as a form of servitude.
But then there is my understanding of humility, whether right or wrong, I cannot tell you for sure but it makes the most sense to me at this stage in my life and my understanding of Christ's living example.
If someone who thought themselves worthless was to serve me, their "service" would not mean much to me. But someone who considered themselves a queen... and then CHOSE to SERVE me? Well then, that servitude would humble me greatly! It would be a great gift indeed!
Just like Jesus, the very son of God, God incarnate, our Saviour... got down on his knees and washed the feet of His apostles. In my eyes, THAT is the image of humility and servitude!
It is not to think myself great, but to think of myself a Child of God! That is why I say to each of you out there, He has breathed His very breath of life into you! BECAUSE He CHOSE you! Your worth in His eyes is beyond our ability to measure. Our worthiness is small but our worth is great... so let us boast about our preciousness as children of God and in that greatness let us fall to our knees and love one another.
Let this be a reminder that we are to recognize our GREATNESS through the Father, but only for the purpose of understanding that there is nothing GREATER than loving someone MORE than ourselves. But that MORE has to mean something!
So stand tall in knowing your worth through the eyes of God. And know that I boast of His breath in you, my fellow siblings those known and unknown, and that I pray should the opportunity arise for me to serve you in any way, that I rise to the occasion with full conviction and fall to my knees honoured by the privilege! What can I do from this computer chair? From this hectic life tucked away in the country? Well, I can love you with every ounce of my existence! And in that love, I am given wings to soar on the winds of freedom... and I want nothing more than to find you all there.
God bless you my dear ones and allow this post to be my kiss on your forehead affirming that you are wanted, you are precious and you are loved.