Still no answers

Well, last night was not a good night at all. My mother was back home and Duane worked a night shift and Ethan decided that he would cry and complain most of the night. Our only sleep was from about 6-8 this morning.

Duane came back from his night shift and said he would bring Ethan to the allergy specialist this morning and drop Anika off at a friend's house so I could rest. He came back with not so helpful info...

The swab they took of his head came back positive for staph infection. Not sure what kind or if it has gotten to his blood stream. But with him constantly scratching open cuts on his head, it's no surprise that he is dealing with that, too. Even I feel scared to touch him for fear that I am giving him bacteria from my own skin. But I know the Lord reminds us not to be afraid and that worrying intercedes our ability to have faith. I'm working on it and sometimes I feel peaceful with the process and other times I am so afraid that this could become one of those rock bottom moments He gives me to rest completely and totally in Him.

And so I will have to rest in Him (as this is the only "rest" I can get!) because Ethan has lost yet another 2oz this past week despite feeding every two hours for forty minutes at a time. The allergy specialist was not at all happy that we did not get Ethan on the formula... if she offered to come and get him on it herself, I'd be all for it! Duane also asked if we could find an elemental formula that did not have corn syrup solids as its first ingredient. Or if it had to be, could it please be non-genetically-modified corn? We're getting used to people looking at us like we're from Mars at these requests... so much for help in that department.

Ethan was sent for an allergy blood test this morning for nine food items. We will also be meeting a naturopath within a couple of weeks who will be testing for 95 different food items.

I just want answers. What is this? How did it happen? What can we do about it?

We continue to pray for our son, for our daughter who feels neglected, for my two big girls who barely get to spend time with mom, either and for guidance towards the right questions and finally the right answers. Thank you for joining us in prayer.